It's been a few weeks since I last saw her. Hmm time has been moving slowly and well I am getting real busy lately too. Kinda too busy to think alot anyway. Shall just blog something short for now.

Sat, I went to SPH and did some movers job. Haha was fun though. Had to move alot of things here and there. But the good news, we can back with alot of goodies. Haha and after work, went to Kiat hse. Cool place. We played mahjong and well I was the only person who lost. In the end, i stayed overnight there.

Sun, went prawning with my best bros. We caught alot of prawns. Haha especially KC, he is a pro now if I should say. Haha he caught alot of prawns well I caught only a little. Way to go bro. After prawning, we went to Jurong East for dinner and the food was great. We even got crazy and went to NTUC to buy chocolates and fruits. Went to KC's hse for chocolate fondue. Haha we even celebrated KC's mum birthday at his hse. Damn was it fun.

Mon, nth special happened though. Went to work as usual and work ended early. We even drank beer there.

Tues, even nth special happen. Haha but I did went to ACER building for a product knowledge talk. I am going to sell ACER products at this coming COMEX fair. Haha kinda nervous though. Hopefully I can do a good job. Shall work hard for more money.

Today, hmm had lunch with my sis at Lot 1. Came back after that and now, I'm preparing to go out to my aunt hse for dinner. Doubt I'll stay there for long though. Tml I need to wake up early so I shall rest early tonight. Maybe I might still watch D-Gray Man tonight but not as fierce as last nite. Currently now at episode 32 le so it shall not be long before I finish the whole series. Got to go now. Haha shall update soon.

Just watched finish "Secret" again. Well this time it's on crunchyroll. I really like that show alot. Especially since this time I have the OST. Sometimes I do wish I too can travel back into time and meet a relationship that is so beautiful like the story. Many a times, I will day dream abt me and her. Walking happily with our hands holding each others hands. I know this is just a dream but at least I do know that I am really very happy there. Recently, I saw her profile changed. Many things happened and till now, I'm still waiting. Waiting for a chance to get to know her. I still remember the first time I took notice of her. Yea, it was her first day of work. I must admit too that I do miss her now and then but there is nth I can do. We are only strangers to each other. If time permits, I wish we will talk soon. And if fate permits, I wish we will be together. But will things happen as how I really want it to be? I guess only time will tell.

Gosh, another 2hr 30 min and I should be going out for breakfast with my brother. Haven't sleep a wink since yesterday and I am going to take my last paper today at 2pm. Hopefully I can pass this paper. Been losing concentration and focus lately. Well at least the holidays is coming and I sure do have loads of work piled up and getting ready for me to clear. First up will be a stock and goods moving job. Follow by PC show and Fish & Co. Next will be factory work and SMRT Challenge. Lastly will be trip to Malaysia and "Rev It Up" go-kart Race. After which, I think I will enroll into a music school and learn how to play the piano. Been wanting to learn it since young but I always never got the chance. Now I hope it's not too late. Hopefully I can learn the basic and master it fast. Geee I think I really did fall in love with her. At least I do smile when I think of her. And yes, I do get tongue tied when I want to talk to her. Lastly, she knows that someone liked her but fortunately, she still doesn't know it's me. She seems interested to know who is it too but I think I shall still keep this a secret. Hopefully I do stand a chance and I wish she will be happier than she is now. Her smiles is more than enough to keep me going. Shall take a break now while listening to "Secret" OST. Will update again soon when I feel like it.

Hmm so tired today. Slept at 3+ am last nite and had to wake up like 7+ am in the morning. To make things worst, I had my math paper just now. Cant do alot of questions. Most of the questions are left half done. Anyway, I tried my best le.

Been kinda disappointed lately. I am always hoping that she will view my friendster. I've been refreshing almost every 5 mins but still I dont see her name appear. At least for now, I do know that her smile is something that makes me really wanna smile. I like it alot. Haha well maybe I might even go down to JP on sunday. Hmm just to see her smile. Lolz. Very bo liao rite? Haha.
That's me ba. Lolz. Shall stop here now. Going out soon

If she is a dream, I wish this dream will last. It's been so long since I felt this way. This feeling, is like I am back to my sec sch days. Where I am just happy enough to see the person I like. Just got info that the girl whom I like, is attached. Hmm guess I am kinda sad after hearing it. But I am also not sure if the info given is true. Does it matter? I'm not too sure myeself. Maybe I should just leave things as it is but one thing for sure, I do miss her. Been thinking abt it lately and I come to realise maybe I do have feelings for her. I'm not too sure myself too but I do smile or feel happy whenever she smile. Her smile is really beautiful too. Cant forget that look on her face when she smile. Been listening to Secret OST. Hmm really I think I am going to buy the DVD and the OST when it is out. Guess ultimately, I can only live in fantasy for now. Exams coming and I shall work hard to pass all modules. Sick and tired of me being so useless but is there something I can do? Guess I shall let time tell. Wish I did talked to her when I saw her.

Hmm, now I realise that this world is so small. Just got back from work and erm, I'm moving to woodlands soon. It will be another 3 - 4 mth time. Firstly, I'll be staying damn near to my best friend in Poly. Secondly, my sec sch friend actually performed with my collegue on NDP. Wow! How small can this world be?

Been kinda emo lately though. I just came to realise that I'm still so insensible. Well I guess it will be a long time b4 I am really an adult. Anyway, enjoyed work today as usual. Friends still making fun of me though but it's still fun. Sadly, I cant seem to open up to other ppl. I've become quite anti-social and I really just wanna go over and say hi to everyone. Hmm I guess I'm still shy afterall. Anyway, this will be a short post so I think I shall stop here for now. It's kinda late already. Tml will be another fine day.

Secret

"Secret"

Follow the notes upon a journey
At first sight makes one’s destiny
When the voyage comes to an end,
return lies hasty keys

Sometimes I really wish I do know how to play the piano. Just watched "Secret" and "Rush Hour 3" last nite. Personally I prefer "Secret". It's really a touching show to my opinion. How I wish I am like Xiao Lun. Hmm... though as much as I want to play the piano, I know it's kinda too late for that now too. Fingers have become stiff. Anyway, watching this movie brings back lots of memories. Of all the girls I have been with, I realise that only 1 of them does not come with a music background and most of them, they do know how to play the piano. After the movie, I got kinda emo. I really envy those that have someone they love by their side. In times when I am down, I have to go through it all alone. Actually it makes me kinda lonely. That's why I do not share my problems with ppl so easily. Cause since young, I have been shouldering it all alone. Somehow, I managed to shoulder it for a long time without finding it tiring but now I think I have reached my limit. Really wish there is someone there for me to share and carry this burden of mine together. I must admit that in the past, I really dunno how to treasure and cherish but is it too late now? Ever since Yr 2, I learnt how to cherish ppl around me. Maybe to some ppl, I am irritating but at least I know deep down, I still treat them with the best I can. It's been a long time since I last think of anything regarding relationship. I've been avoiding it lately and till now, I still hope that one day, I can forget abt her. A girl I knew and fell in love with last year. Maybe I'm still not ready but I will keep trying my best to settle all the loose ends and start life over again. Lastly, I think I have found something in life that is worth fighting for. Shall stop here now. Currently at my friend house with the guys sleeping beside me. Lolz.

Updates

Hmm been too busy lately. Too much work undone and too little time left. Well I've been rather lazy for the whole sem so now work is stacking as high as the empire state building. So I shall blog a short post today.



Last nite, National day parade is nice. I have to queue like 4 over hrs just to see the fireworks. This is all thnx to Eline. Haha. Well she insisted on staying there and watch the fireworks. Poor XM, Dan and me. Had to squeeze in to the middle of the bridge with all those ppl around. I kinda pity those police officer on duty more though. Everyone ignored them and the place is chaotic. After the parade, Dan suggested that we have our dinner at YISHUN. Hmm pretty far place but the food was still alright. Managed to get some new info abt the guys too. Well it's kinda sad info though but I do hope things will get better. We went home afterwards.



Another thing, I've been having weird dreams lately. Well in the dreams, the same girl whom I know keep appearing. Hmm weird though. But it's a dream afterall so... erm.... shall ignore it till the time come. Been being make fun of lately at work. The guys there keep bombarding me with info of a girl. Well I do admit I kinda like her but, I dun think I can love another person just as yet. With all the things I have yet to settle, I think I better not make life difficult. I'll just have to see how things goes for now and hmm... maybe I too have to work as a waiter. Hopefully I can earn more money now. Really need a lot of cash now.



Last thing, I think mom has decided to move to woodlands. Hmm been there and well the house, hmm very big but kinda far from the MRT station. Well if really have to move in there, I will really wanna design my own room myself. And I really wish the guys will come more often. Dun really wanna be seperated from them. I guess I shall make it a point to meet up with them more often too. Haha afterall we known each other since sec 1 so must keep in constant contact!



I think I shall stop here. Have a test later. Shall go and study now.