I never knew it's this funny when ever I think abt how things work.
People complaint abt losing someone they care while others complaint how irritating their other partners were but thinking back, why in the first place would you like her den?
It's is said that if you really like a person, you will wan her to be happy. Knowing that I can't give the happiness she desire, I chose to give up and let her go. Hoping that this will allow her to find the happiness she desire. And ever since then, I'm always alone as days past.
Now being sick, it's difficult for me since the feeling is so terrible. Looking after myself have become hard since I cant cook. To make matter worst, I still have projects to finish up. Not forgetting work to attend to. Seriously I just can't understand why I am still bothered by something. I admit I have forgotten abt the past but still I am bothered by something even though I myself dun noe. I tried all I could and being a gentleman as much as I could. But things still end up the same. Either I get ignored or I just lost topic to talk to. I just dun understand why I just can't seem to talk to her but den she's also busy with her work that makes me even more not willing to disturb her. Last sat, being sick, I still turn up for the BBQ and practically cook all the food from the start of the BBQ to the end. No words of thanks were mention and not forgetting asking if I am alright. I just stood there alone to cook while thinking of some things.
Maybe it's fate, maybe I deserve to be alone. I'm not sure. But I dun believe that for me to like someone will be so difficult. After which, I decided to head over to my brother house and played psp with him. Back to Monster Hunter Freedom 2 but still I'm just playing back cause my brothers persuaded me to. Wonder if live will change if I am attached. Maybe it will but this I guess I will never know until it happen. For now, I'm really busy with projects and work. Hoping that when the time come, I will be accepted for who am I and I will be able to commit. I just dun wanna lose someone ever again. That's how life has been.
People complaint abt losing someone they care while others complaint how irritating their other partners were but thinking back, why in the first place would you like her den?
It's is said that if you really like a person, you will wan her to be happy. Knowing that I can't give the happiness she desire, I chose to give up and let her go. Hoping that this will allow her to find the happiness she desire. And ever since then, I'm always alone as days past.
Now being sick, it's difficult for me since the feeling is so terrible. Looking after myself have become hard since I cant cook. To make matter worst, I still have projects to finish up. Not forgetting work to attend to. Seriously I just can't understand why I am still bothered by something. I admit I have forgotten abt the past but still I am bothered by something even though I myself dun noe. I tried all I could and being a gentleman as much as I could. But things still end up the same. Either I get ignored or I just lost topic to talk to. I just dun understand why I just can't seem to talk to her but den she's also busy with her work that makes me even more not willing to disturb her. Last sat, being sick, I still turn up for the BBQ and practically cook all the food from the start of the BBQ to the end. No words of thanks were mention and not forgetting asking if I am alright. I just stood there alone to cook while thinking of some things.
Maybe it's fate, maybe I deserve to be alone. I'm not sure. But I dun believe that for me to like someone will be so difficult. After which, I decided to head over to my brother house and played psp with him. Back to Monster Hunter Freedom 2 but still I'm just playing back cause my brothers persuaded me to. Wonder if live will change if I am attached. Maybe it will but this I guess I will never know until it happen. For now, I'm really busy with projects and work. Hoping that when the time come, I will be accepted for who am I and I will be able to commit. I just dun wanna lose someone ever again. That's how life has been.
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