Another day is gone. Just now girl told me, I must love myself more if not how can I expect ppl to love me? Y are u so good to me? Is it worth it? She know she treat me bad but yet she cannot accept me to treat her so good. Truth is I do love myself. It's not that I don't. It's just so happen that I always think abt others first before me. Why do I do all these? First, her parents will scold her and the amount maybe too much for them to handle too. Next, I can't expect her to keep worrying abt money matters when her O lv is coming. This is care to her. This is the way I care for her. I considered all the possible factors and in the end I think this is the least I could do for her. Helping her is something I can do. I dun expect her to love me but as long as I'm around, I'll always try to help her with what I can. You can't expect me to dun give a damn abt not helping her. I'm sorry but I'm soft hearted to the person I love. I can't be hard hearted to her. Even if we end up not being together, I still can't do it. It's my personality. This is me. This is my weak point. I guess I can only live with it. If she cannot accept me for this den I'll just have to accept the fact. Truth is always harsh. I just have to live with it.

" Love is blind. "