Hmm today I was really in a bad mood but now I feel better le. Just now ran with an uncle. He's a 1WO from Navy. Hmm though the run was a short one, I feel that I have calm down alot. Sometimes I really wonder, doing so much for her, do I not deserve her love at all? It's clear I love her more den she love me. It's clear on how much I wanna protect her smile, but do I really no deserve a chance at all? She told me I treat her very good. But even if I treat her so good, do I not deserve a chance to be with her? No doubt we used to be together but we broke up for a reason too silly for me to accept. Now after so long, do I still not deserve the chance to get together once more? I guess maybe this is the question which stopped me from moving forward. If there is no love between us, I rather she hate me and ignore me. I rather she tell me straight in the face there is no love. Than I can stop all these struggle. I took 1 yr to get over my ex whom I love alot. This time, I really dunno how long it will be. To be truly happy for me is to live my life with the person I love to the fullest. Being happy everyday. Now, I'm just another soul walking around living in my dreams. Can I come back to reality? I guess I will have to find out myself.

" Chance is all I'm looking for. Waiting only for the time to come and an answer to be given. "