today... i had the worst time of my life and the best time of my life...
worst time of my life was that i realized tat if one day... i am to lose her...
i'll be like today... not having any mood to do things... and will keep thinking of her...
yes... it happened today... the feeling sux... but yet there is nth i can do...
i fell asleep last nite while chatting with her... and kinda got ignored...
but i cant blame her... i was in the wrong and i was selfish...
selfish cause i keep telling her to let me know when she is tired... but yet...
i didnt tell her when i was tired... and this was very unfair to her...
i learned my lesson today and i will always be honest with her...

den the happy moment... i tot she will ignore me the whole day...
yet in the end... we met up and things got better... within the last the short 2 hr...
i was with her... and helped her with her maths... did some qns and explained to her...
hopefully she can understand my workings... den i went home afterwards...
cause i forgot my key... i can only go home later den expected... i was still happy though...
she no longer ignore me and we talked on the phone... though she still have gastric pain...
but i hope she will get well soon... seeing her like this really pain me...
though i am not her bf... i still worry... and i still care... cause i really like her alot...
till now... the 3 words have never left my mouth... y??? cause i fear...
if one day i tell her the 3 words... she will not like it... it's not like i dun wanna tell her tat...
but i dun think i have the permission to do so... neither do i have the rights to tell her this...
she still have a choice and i dun really wanna make matter worst... but deep down...
i really do wanna tell her tat... i guess i can only wait for the rite time and the rite place ba...