Things seems to have settle down now...
still I'm really am confused... I'm lost at wat i should be doing...
Been so long since i last felt like this... I really hate this feeling...
loving someone yet I have to pretend that I feel nothing...
when i see her so near... i can only keep quiet and watch over her...
looking at her back... just make me feel so distant... and dreams seems so far...
perhaps this is the price to pay... this is my karma...
I mean i really dun mind getting hurt but I guess i am not tat strong as i think i am...
i have my weak point and i guess this is something i need to work on it...
even though we are back to friends now... i really wonder if i will still get the chance to love her...
with Jeremy... i really dunno wat to do... just feel like hiding forever... just wanna hide...
just wanna avoid this issue... but i noe somehow i still need to face it... i still need to work on it...
and i need to obtain an answer from it... otherwise i will be burden by this issue for life...
after talking to luyun for the past few days...
i guess i can only accept her advice and observe the situation for awhile...
hopefully there is a chance for me... I know i have been doing things that is not me...
and i wanna change and show her the real me... the me tat is compromising...
the me tat will give her my best in things i do... and that i will make her happy all the time...
though i know i may not be a very good person... but at least i am willing to change...
for her... i will if she wants it... guess love is blind... mine is foolish... but that's life...
there's nth i can do to change it... this is me ba...