Finally... it's over... this episode ended the way i wanted it to be...
now she hates me alot and tat's wat i wanted afterall...
doing all those things was to get her to hate me... and i have done it...
just hope she can find her happiness with him...
foolish or not i dunno... but i noe... this is how it show end anyway...
rather den keeping a relationship tat will never work...
might as force it to go...
it's hard to let go and i cant let go...
a promised i made... i kept it till the end...
no doubt i already noe it's impossible for me...
i still held on and not letting go... but it hurts alot...
when she say those words... my heart really break...
it's like my heart being torn apart bit by bit...
and in the end... i kept my cool and gave her my blessing...
the things i do... is not something i would do... but i did it to spite her...
guess it went well... and for that... i get the answer i am looking for...
to be frank... i already prepare myself for this ending le...
i used 4 hrs to gauge us... and if by the end of the 4 hrs... no reply is given...
i will give up and leave... and true enough... i did... not because i am letting go...
but because i can feel tat i am not the one for her...
even if it means hurting me... i am willing to sacrifice...
i've been doing it for the past relationship... and i dun see why i cannot do it now...
but this time... it hurts more den anything...
those words... those comment... i guess i deserve it...
it was never my intention to do so but i really wanted to test her...
now i am paying the price...
from now on... i just hope she will be happier... with him...
and that he will never ever make her sad... angry or cry...
i will though find a way to recover from it... but i dun think it will be so easy...
afterall... i really did put my heart and soul to love her...
that's y the hurt is more for me... too bad she will never see this post anyway...
no one will cause this blog has been more of like a private one...
Be happy Josephine... Live yur life with Jeremy to the fullest...
cause i know i can't give u wat Jeremy can... so i had to make u hate me...
making u hate me will make it easier for me to leave u... and watch over u from behind...
cause i still care abt u... and some feelings will never change...