I thought my resolve was set but I dun think it was after today...
just receive a sms from HER... she told me why she hated me...
I sort of guess what the reason was too... but what really hurt me was not the reason...
but was me making her cry... I thought only 1 person needed to be hurt and be hated...
and tat 1 person was to be me... but upon knowing that she cried... I know i failed...
I regret doing those things to hurt her but can I still turn back???
I'm not sure at all... I'm confused... I wanna love her but yet I dun think I can...
afterall her heart is set to go with Jeremy... wat else can I do here except wait???
I'm not even sure if she will forgive me for making her hate me... I too hate this silent war...
Every time I see her... I just cant help but wanna hide... hide away from her...
hide away from everything... I'm just being a fool at times... especially when it come to relationship
I'm always hiding being and dare not step to the front... it's tiring... very tiring...
but there seems to be nth else I can do... afterall waiting is wat I do best...
I can only hope things will get better for me... and that my chance is still not lost...
at least i know she still cares abt me... at least I know she misses me too...
Just hope things will improve and I get to love her openly...