Finally got my phone back. Today I went to do SBJ and to my surprise, I jump 220. Haha finally a big improvement. Now I'm adapting to the new phone I got from my aunt. Kinda hard to use but I believe I will get used to it soon. Did something pretty silly again. Yes, I cant stop myself from being nice to her. I'm willing to even spend on her if she wants me to. Though I am having some probs myself but I'm still willing to spend the money and help her. Desipte now I have to scrimp and save. Ultimately, it's my heart that is ruling over me and I have no control over it. Perhaps this is wat my heart thinks and want. Just wish things can be the way I always perceive it to be. At least this will make my life better. Sometimes I just feel very miserable and it really hurts to think abt her. Will this ever change? I guess I'm not too sure myself.