Breathing difficulty. Yes I'm experiencing this and I still go down and play ball. Am I looking for a way to shorten my life? Hmm maybe yes maybe not. I didnt wanted to go down today either but I went down for another reason. Well halfway during the game I do feel hard on breathing but I dun think it matters at all. The most I collapse and die? Hmm not a bad idea. Well dieing is also a matter of time. Sooner or later I will have to leave this world. Let this come naturally is the best way. haha but life really is different now. Not as carefree as I used to be and neither do I find things interesting. Everything has lost it meaning and seems boring to me already. Life is as stale as it gets. Still a smile is all I can put up infront of others. Other emotions will just have to be put aside and let it be left there unattended. Life is nothing more den just living it day by day. I shall try to find my happiness in living as days pass.